My knee is a bum...or just is bum. Either way, I hurt my knee (getting the baby out of the van--lame!) & haven't been able to work out much at all this week. It had started feeling better, so I went to Zumba last night & now it's an angry knee, "bent" on keeping me downtrodden & a couple of steps behind my racing children.
In pursuit of another big goal that is once again tied to a specific time-frame (why do I keep doing this to myself?), I've been a little depressed about it all week. On top of that, I'm in the middle of another big Opal resurgence, which is always a kick in the self-esteem. The funny thing: the depression is exactly what I needed to perk me back up. How's this for bass ackwards (thank you, Mom)?
I can't do anything about Opal. I've figured out that as I shed pounds it comes from different places & my body seems to have a cycle where I lose some rump & I lose some boob & am left with some bump in the middle for a couple of weeks. It is what it is & I just need to power through. BUT, as to the knee depression, Old Sara wouldn't have been depressed at all! Old Sara would have been pretty darn excited to have a legit reason to stay far away from anything with any kind of impact, low or high. Old Sara would have been only too happy to throw in the towel & let the process derail. New Sara is depressed. Huzzah!
Here's to depression & not letting it ruin my progress to goal: 100 pounds gone by February 17.
Words of reflection, encouragement, punishment, catharsis, narcissism, humor & accountability from a wife & mother on a journey to reclaim her body & keep her sanity. Sometimes heavy, sometimes light, always real life.
I'm sorry to hear about your knee. I've felt the same way about my back the past few months. It makes me even more upset when I know how exercise really helps in the calorie counts each day. I practically can't make it through a day with out extra exercise calories! It's hard but give it a couple days and hopefully you'll be kickin' it again soon!!!
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