I was all fired up. I was excited to blend some of the great habits I have learned in my 2+ years of shedding pounds with the new passion for whole foods. And then it happened...illness.
When your job is stay at home parent, the sick policy is really lousy. It goes something like this: "You have a 103 degree temperature & you're seeing purple oompa-loompas doing a may pole dance on the bed post? Tough. Go make breakfast." That was me last week. A fever that high does some crazy stuff to your brain & once you're better, you're still a little addled & ridiculously tired in the days that follow. "Lucky" for me Lincoln was sick at the exact same time. We laid motionless in my bed & watched "a furious amount of TV"--as Lincoln put it--& prayed that Coraline stayed alive. At some point she found a pen & explored the possibility of becoming a tattoo artist. I had no idea until Dave asked me about it the next day.
All of this is to say that I was excited & on track, I had strung together a couple of good weeks of loss, I was running again & then...I didn't let it derail me! This is a victory of major mental proportions. So often I have a good stretch going & then life does what life does & I let it get to me. This week I took charge & reminded myself that I am the only one that makes my choices. I let it inspire me to look up a new Zumba class that works perfectly with our schedule & budget. I let it push me to get back out & run during some (more) of our ridiculously great weather. I let it fuel me to try to make good food choices because my body needed nutrients to recuperate from fever damage.
Some genuine observations from the clouded haze of my fever addled brain:
- I'm the only one that makes choices for me.
- I am not an observer in my own life, I am the play maker.
- I am DONE letting fear make a choice for me--inaction is the same thing as a negative action.
- I am dealing with my food demons because of how they affect my life, not just my pants' size.
- When any one member of a family is sick, the house erupts in an explosion of filth rivaling an episode of "Hoarders." When two members are sick, it's time to 'doze it & start over.