Saturday, March 16, 2013

There & Back Again: An Obese Girl's Tale


If a picture is worth 1000 words, then two pictures must be worth this case, almost all 2000 of mine are unsuitable for civilized company.

Today was my last first day of Couch to 5K.  If it's possible, I think I was more proud of myself today than on my FIRST first day of Couch to 5K (I certainly had to work harder!).  I'm 50 lbs heavier than I was then.  I'm an obese woman.  And I huffed & I puffed & I blew that run down.  It was urgli.  It was painful.  And I did it.
Rather than dwell on how the disparity of these pictures (taken almost exactly a year apart) makes me feel like a disgusting failure, I'm choosing to embrace these images.  I'm choosing to use the picture on the left to remind me of what is possible--no, what is probable!  I'm choosing to use the picture on the right to remind me that a life's work is never done--thank goodness, I'll never be bored!  I waffled as to whether to post righty, but this is the process--warts & all.  I'm lumpy & bottom heavy but I did it--I went for my first post-baby run.

There was a moment during my last walk interval when my favorite running song ("Let it Rock" by Kevin Rudolf) came on & I nearly lost it.  I could barely keep up to the beat while walking; last year I could run it double time.  It was yet another concrete reminder of how far I've slipped in one year.  But just as the pictures above, it can be a negative or a positive.  Positive:  I have another great non-scale benchmark to gauge my progress as I head back again.  To thin, to healthy, to myself, to running the snot out of "Let it Rock."

Speaking of snot, check out my new gloves.  They have fleecy index fingers so you can wipe your nose when you're running in the cold.  Bizarre?  Yes.  Disgusting?  Absolutely.  Did I use them for their intended purpose on this chilly morning?  You bet your sweet bippy, I did.  Hawt.


  1. Thank you for posting this!!! The "warts and all" are what I need to get motivated to get back out there!! I had lost 40lbs -- FORTY POUNDS and gained 1/2 back through lack of maintenance (note: my goal was to lose 100, and I stopped at 40, because bar-be-ques are beer were more important to me than getting healthy). Now, I'm just down 20lbs. .. kind of sad. Still an improvement, but "I could be done by now" keeps popping in my head. This reminds me that we are NEVER done. This is a LIFELONG process, and it looks like we're in it together!! :) Thanks for that.

  2. I'm cheering you and me on! I lost 50lbs in 2011 and reached my ww goal....then got pregnant in 2012 with baby #3 and gained it all back. My little guy was born in September and I've lost about 20lb and think I'm finally ready to really get serious. I was so proud of what I accomplished and now I look at pics and am just bummed. But we can do it again, right?? Thanks for your honesty and motivation!!