"The time is going to pass whether you do something with it or not. Next year it will be Next Year no matter what I do, so I might as well do something good with what I've got in the meantime."
When I was a wee sprat in middle school, I had a friend who's mother was going through a rather sudden divorce. She used the chaotic time in her life as a spring board to change her circumstances & rather than sit & mope, she decided to get her college degree. The above quote is something I overheard her saying to another mother (not my mother!) when asked why she was taking the time to go back to school "at her age," especially since it would take so long doing it part time.
Little did Beyonce (sadly not her name--I honestly can't remember her name this many years after the fact) know that she was not only taking charge of her life, but she was also shaping mine years down the road. Not much good comes easy or quickly. It takes time & hard work & consistency & perseverance to get to a long term goal.
I don't know why I'm thinking about Beyonce today, but I wonder where I would be without that inadvertent lesson? I pulled that quote out of my memory many times in the early stages of my journey, reminding myself that each small good choice was a step toward a big step that I wouldn't be able to see without the benefit of time. Now that some time is past & I can look back on two years of better choices & accumulation of effort, I'd like to say:
- Thank you, Beyonce, for giving me an idea to hold onto when the small steps are frustrating (this is how Internet rumors get started, by the way, but I'm not saying anything mean about Beyonce, so I don't think she'll mind...it's not like I'm naming a big metal chicken after her--if you're not afraid of impolite snort out loud laughter & four-letter-words click here & you will find THE funniest thing on the Internet).
- Thank you, Shortsighted Other Mother, for asking a hideously rude & inappropriate question within earshot of impressionable youths. You're just lucky that Beyonce took the ball & ran with it.
- Thank you, Memory for hanging on to at least one useful thing in my whole life. If I can't remember kidnapping my (then) boyfriend for an impromptu trip to Graceland because Graceland should be on EVERYONE'S bucket list, well then at least I can remember a golden idea that I eavesdropped as a 14 year old.
- I can't stop time from marching on. All I can do is the best I can with the time I have right now.