13 PointsPlus Values...
For 13 PointsPlus Values I could eat: 1/4 c of hummus with 11 Kashi Pita Chips, a cucumber, a piece of string cheese, a turkey stick, a peach & 13 of the best animal crackers you'll ever find (thank you, Costco!) OR I could do what I ACTUALLY did & have my daughter's leftover Panera Mac & Cheese, eaten cold & shoveled in while standing in front of the open fridge...as if closing the fridge is what makes it a problem. For perspective, I am allotted 29 PointsPlus for a whole day & this wasn't even a meal, mind you. It was a "snack," eaten in addition to my regularly planned meals. Budget blown.
Yesterday was bad (I've had worse, but it was still bad). As is my norm, when I hit a goal I seem mentally obliged to do some backsliding to "keep it real." At first I was blaming my eating on my exercise up-tick (today will be 9 days in a row--I'm throwing it out there to ensure that I don't flake out on my Zumba class tonight!). "I need more protein." "I've been burning a lot." Or the perennial classic: "I DESERVE it." blarg.
Here's what I DESERVE: I deserve good food to fuel my body. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to honor my hard work with pride in a job well done, not mindless binging.
- When feeling weak, I need to stay out of the kitchen--physically. If I walk in the kitchen I will forage until I find something & that something is never celery.
- The kids' Mac & Cheese at Panera is tasty, but NOT worth it...for me or my kid. Apparently Coraline knew it was a horrible choice because she hardly touched it. We won't be buying it. Ever. Again.
- The time to right the ship is with the next bite, not the next day. The one thing I did right yesterday was realize the tailspin & clamp down on it in the evening...before the night-time nosh that I was busily justifying with the toxic idea that "the day was lost." When I needed to go in the kitchen before bed to stir in my yogurt starter, Dave kindly went with me so that I wouldn't sneak eat. Doing damage is never a reason to do EVEN MORE damage.